I woke up this morning more refreshed than I usually am after a night at the b/f’s place. The bed is old and sags in odd places so he got a few pieces of wood to correct the bad. Surprise, surprise it worked!
This morning I woke up refreshed and but tired. Not physically tired, buy mentally tired.d Although I am pleased that I did not gain anything last week, this morning I started to wear my self down about. ”What if you body starts adapting to your workouts, what if you are not pushing yourself enough, what if you stop losing, what if, what if……” Sometimes I am my biggest cheerleader and sometimes I am my biggest critic. During my workout I just keep telling myself “you only have to lose one more pound, you only have to do one more rep, you only have to do one my workout”. My critic starts spewing and I started to feel defeated, I just boil things down to “one more” because, in this moment all I have to worry about is doing one more rep.
I finished my workout and I felt good. I was glad I did not skip. I know I am close to where I started to plateau (or where my good habits started to deteriorate) but all I have to focus on is losing one more pound. Not 10 lbs, not 20 lbs, not 56 lbs, just one more pound.
That I can handle.
Especially after I had tortilla chips as an “after work snack” (eyeroll), scalloped potatoes and a little bit of wine last night at a dinner party. I did have salad and fish and strawberries! I just had some other stuff too. I know this journey is not about being “perfect” it is about living in a healthier manner. And all I have to work about, food wise, is one more meal.
Just one more. :) Take that mind block.
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