No phone

There is a guy. For the sake of the blog, names will be changed. So, there is this guy, Jay, and we've been dating for 19 weeks.

Last night, at his place, we had a misunderstanding. I would not call it a fight, but we each had explaining to do to the other person. On top of our misunderstanding (details to come later) my grandpa's sick so my emotions have been cycling between happy and sad on a continuous basis for the past few days. That did not help.

When I left this morning for the gym, although we resolved things, I still felt like things were left slightly undone. Like I ironed my shirt, ironed my pants, put everything on but still had not buttoned the cuffs - just a little bit left to do.

What is heightening this feeling of things being undone, is my phone is practically dead. And I text. We text. We text each other a lot, on top of talking to each other everyday. And now I have no contact with him. I mean I could call him from my office phone, but I feel like I just want to be connected with him, but what I have to say does not warrant a phone call. You know that balance between the point where you would text someone but not call him/her - that is where I am.

Part of me wants to see him tonight to a) just to see him and b) to finish things from yesterday. But right now, my free time is not my own. I have CASB (Chartered Accountant School of Business) to work on tonight. That means I have an assignment to complete due Thursday night. The responsible thing is to go home and work on my assignment but I am thinking if I leave things for another day, will it be okay? Am I just being obsessive? I know I over analyze things, but part of me feels uncertain.

Argh. There is nothing I can do until I get home and charge my phone (unless I want to pick up the phone). We'll see.