I feel like I am waiting. I am aware that I have needy tendencies and that desire lots of affection in my life. I know. I have expressed that Jay, especially after our "discussion" "disagreement" whatever it was, that I need to be reassured about his feelings towards us and me.
I like him, I enjoy being with him, but right now. In this second, I would say there is a hesitation in our future. I cannot instantly create a daydream of what our lives together could be. There is a hesitation, a question - is there a future?
It is hard to tell how much doubt and how much truth is in this hesitation. I no longer feel like I am on steady ground.
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